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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

New Pics

These are pictures that were taken by my brohter-in-law a couple of months ago. I LOVE them!

Josiah had just turned three, and Elwin was three-and-a-half months.











Thursday, December 22, 2011

This Christmas...

...I hope for you who are hurting, that you will find the peace that can only be found in Jesus.

...I hope for you who do not know Him, that you will seek and find Him.

...I hope for you who are wanting more, that you will let go of a bit more so He can move.

...I hope for you who are busy, that you will find stillness and rest, if only inside!

...I hope for you who are with loved ones, that you will appreciate each moment for what it is.

...I hope for you who need love, that you will feel the embrace of the One who loved through the gift of His son.

...I hope for you who are starting over or saying good-bye, that you will feel His presence and know that you aren't alone.

...I hope for you who are not what or where you thought you'd be, that you will be able to move on with new hope.

...I hope for you who are truly joyful, that you will allow this to touch those who need it most.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year from ours to yours, with love.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Lately, I have been...

...working very late.

...trying to get wrapping done.

...feeling frustrated with gift orders that haven't arrived on time for Christmas.

...shopping for last-minute gifts because of things that have not come in.

...standing in long lines, and realizing how patient I am without kids trying to rip things off the racks. It's almost enjoyable.

...feeling done with stuff, and wanting much more.

...realizing more things about myself that I wish were not true, and struggling to give them over to God.

...missing important events because there is just too much happening and I don't have the energy.

...really enjoying listening to Josiah talk about Christmas and what he thinks it is. He wonders what Jesus would like on his cake, and if He will come to have a piece with us...and why He won't. He said he didn't want to share his Christmas train with Jesus, and I have heard him saying that he will even though he doesn't 'wish' to.

...dealing with a very fussy, very clingy, teething baby boy.

...doing way too much laundry.

...going to bed too late just to have a few minutes to myself, and then paying for it.

...having some fun visits, and looking forward to more.

...getting excited about giving a few gifts and worrying over others.

...missing all of my regular activities, but also enjoying the breaks.

...trying to drink my coffee black.

...listening to old and new Christmas songs.

...missing the physical space and time to play piano (and not having a piano!).

..wishing I could speed up time for some issues and slow it way down for others.

...wondering when I will hear about my heart surgery.

...feeling down when I read the news, and wondering if I should just stop.

...hearing the beautiful sounds of Elwin trying to sing as he bounces to the music on my lap.

...wanting to read a great book (without falling asleep would be nice!).

...hoping that my boys will begin, in small ways, to understand the significance of the celebration of Christmas.

...feeling excited for a chance to rest in the peace of this holiday, however that looks with two little boys!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

This year, Chris and Josiah went to cut down the tree. Although I love doing this, I was feeling under the weather, so I stayed home with Elwin.


I love decorating for Christmas. It may be the only time of year that I enjoy loud and tacky decorations (well...not too tacky!). This year, I had tiny hands eager to help. Josiah was elated to see all of the ornaments being pulled out. He wanted to know where they came from.


He loved putting decorations on the tree, and I let him throw them wherever he wanted. I was so happy to share these moments with someone who seemed to enjoy it as much as I do. I did not have the heart or inclination to move a single thing he placed on the tree (well, maybe a little bit of an inclination). Life is too short. I'm sure someday when I sit gazing at my perfectly decorated tree, that I will close my eyes, and long to see those chubby little hands and eyes filled with joy staring at our lop-sided tree!


And we couldn't forget the trains! Josiah picked out some decorations to transform his train table into a winter wonderland. He's been having fun, piling snow on the tracks, making it fall from the sky, and plowing it out of the way. It is all over our house too, but he is really enjoying it!


Even though it feels like October here, I am really in the Christmas spirit this year...now if only I could get some of those last minute details worked out...so hard with kids!

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Health

I wanted to give a health update, as I know many of you have asked and are wondering about news regarding my heart.

I still have not received news of a date for my heart surgery, but all the test results were sent to Halifax, and they will decide what type of surgery I need. My cardiologist was recommending angioplasty rather than open-heart surgery so I am hoping for that as well. The procedure will likely take place in Halifax (and not in Saint John as I was originally told).

My cardiologist suggested that both of the boys be tested for a heart defect, since their chances are three times higher than if they did not have a parent with this condition.

They had an appointment with a pediatrician to set up ECGs and echocardiograms, which may take place in the next couple of weeks. Elwin's heart sounds good; however, Josiah has a heart murmur. Both our family doctor and the pediatrician think that it sounds benign, but they are testing him just to make sure.

Josiah has seemed very ill to me for quite some time. Last Saturday, I just took him to the ER, because I wanted blood work to make sure nothing more serious was happening. Everything came back clear, and the doctor suggested that he is probably just building his immune system by trying to fight off multiple viruses. I still wasn't sure this was it.

While I was at the pediatrician's office yesterday, I was able to ask some other questions that I have been wondering about. And I discovered that I think Josiah has an allergy to chalk. This is a HUGE relief! I have felt sick for some time, watching him struggle, and not knowing what it was. He was fatigued and pale, and always complained of having a sore throat and not feeling well. He has a chalk board in his play area, and he has been chalking up trains lately, pretending that they are dirty and dusty from the tunnels.

I'll let you know if I hear any results about the boys, or if I get a date or details regarding my heart surgery! I am so thankful for the quality of care and treatment we have access to. Thanks for all who have been praying for this. It is greatly appreciated as I struggle with exhaustion and discomfort while I'm waiting.

Monday, December 5, 2011

We have never practiced printing or letters. I have never given Josiah information on any of this that he hasn't requested or observed. It's just the way I feel is best (and what I observed teaching kindergarten). So, I was thrilled to see this...


His first perfectly formed letter, all on his own. I was doing dishes, and heard, "Look, Mommy! I made a 'G'!

The other thing Josiah has been doing lately is playing some educational computer games. When daddy replaced his work laptop, he gave the old one to the boys without Internet.


He can click his way through most of the games, and has even been clicking and dragging with the mouse for about a month now!

And lastly, for fun, we made some new tunnels for our train table. Breton cracker boxes (rectangular ones) are the perfect size. Covered and painted, they have provided hours of fun!


With two kids, I am finding it challenging to spend quality time and do meaningful tasks with each. Some days, I breeze through, and wonder what we actually accomplished. Like today, we just hung out, enjoyed fresh air, watched too much television, and tried to laugh as much as we could!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Random Christmas confessions...

- I love Christmas, and I am getting excited as I prepare for all of the celebrations.

- Today, I pulled all of the Christmas mugs out. These are one of my favorite decorations, perhaps because they are useful too!

- Sometimes, as the holiday approaches, I long for a space to decorate nicely and host fun things. I get irritated when I hear complaints of people having to host, when I would love this more than anything (although I do realize it is not every one's gifting!). Maybe someday...

- Every year, I deliberate on whether or not to string popcorn. It looks quaint, but then it gets stale and stinks up the house (and my three-year-old would probably try to eat it all off the tree).

-Wheaton's store is one of my favorite places to be while Christmas shopping...the country Christmas decorations, all of the candle smells, lights, fudge...

- It is hard for me not to spoil my kids (and everyone else I know) at Christmas, even though I know I shouldn't, don't have the money, and realize that gifts are only a small part of Christmas. I just LOVE thinking of people and buying fun gifts.

- Personally, I am looking forward to Josiah's new toys...I am soooo bored of the ones he has now!

- I miss making Christmas decorations...a part of my past that seems to have gotten lost in the busyness of having small children (and a heart problem).

- One of my traditions has been an advent calendar, where I store Bible verses to be read each day, and sometimes other surprises such as treats, small gifts, crafts to be completed, games to be played, books to be read, movies to be watched, giving missions to be completed, etc... This is one of the things I look forward to most.

- I miss teaching, and getting two weeks off at Christmas. All that is in me anticipates a greatly deserved break that won't happen.

- I enjoy watching Christmas movies, as well as all of the Anne of Green Gables movies (this was easier before I had kids as it can take a while!).

- I bought the Doug and Melissa wooden nativity set for the boys this year, and I am looking forward to setting it up and retelling the Christmas story.

- There are a few people on my list who seem challenging to buy for, and they always seem to be the last gifts I purchase. I vow every year that I will find the perfect gift...and I don't think I ever have!

- I secretly listen to Christmas music because Chris doesn't like it played too early, only this year, he found out (and he was also listening early!).

- I am finding the Santa dilemma hard. Josiah called him the Christmas man- too cute! It is difficult when older people ask him who is coming, or if Santa will bring him presents. It plants ideas in his head that I'm not sure how to correct. I don't want him to be a 'spoiler' for other kids who believe this way, but I don't want him believing in this either. Seems too complicated for a three-year-old to sort out.

- I am excited for Elwin's first Christmas!

- I am feeling sad for some who are heading into this holiday with heavy losses on their hearts.

- I used to be great at sending Christmas cards and pictures...now I really have good intentions, but my list has grown shorter every year. I love this tradition and feel that it is dying out a little from when I was a kid, when Christmas cards would fill mantles and wrap around doorways.

- Although Chris thinks I am a snooper, I have only ever peeked at one Christmas gift. When I was a kid, and I saw the wrapping paper peeling at one end (after vigourously shaking and investigation- I am not claiming total innocence on this one!), I looked in and saw IQ2000 (the board game of the year!). It was quite disappointing on Christmas morning, and I had to pretend to be excited, and I'm not a good liar. But every year, Chris hides my present (usually away from our house!) because he thinks I'll peek.

- This year, we are going to my childhood home for Christmas, and I am so excited about this! I love being there, and visiting with family members I don't get to see often enough.

- In the midst of housework and dirty diapers, shopping and baking, planning and running, I am looking forward to stealing away quiet moments to reflect and give thanks for everything this holiday means to us.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Five Months

Today, Elwin is five months old. We have greatly enjoyed getting to know him and watching him grow. He is calm and sweet. His dimples pop and his eyes sparkle when you take the time to talk to him.

Here are a few recent pictures:

His lopsided grin...


His great interest in everything we do...


His total disdain for getting dressed to go...


His love of sitting in the double stroller with Josiah...


His obsessive thumb sucking...


His painful teething bouts...


His tumbles from his big brother's arms...


His monkey-toed PJ's...


His celery 'snacks'...


His first snow...


His love of stories...


His sheer joy at being naked...


His willingness to play 'Baby Moses' in a drama created by Josiah...
(just one step away from the pond!)


Elwin has filled our home with new joy. Even Josiah calls him 'sweet baby' because there is just no better way to describe him.

At his check-up last week, he weighed 19 lbs. 11 oz., and was 28 1/4 inches long. He is in 9-12 month clothing, and on his last box of size 3 diapers before we get size four. He is growing strong, and learning to do lots of new things.

He can easily grab and hold toys (and hair!). He tries to get his socks and shoes off, and then sucks on them, or on his toes. Elwin also is trying to pull himself up to a sitting position. Although he can roll over, he doesn't seem to enjoy this motion, so it doesn't happen very often! When held, Elwin jumps like crazy.

Elwin is curious about food, and likes to gnaw on raw vegetables to help with his teething pain. He hates taking medicine, and comes up with new strategies all the time for how to spit it out. Oh, and he is blowing raspberries!

His love of music shines through every day. Yesterday, he sang along in church...so cute!

And that is a peek at our boy at five months!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

I'm not sure about you, but I find myself less inclined to buy new things these days. A lot of stuff seems to break very quickly.

For example, I am on my third whisk this year. They have ranged from $1.00-$10 each, and the quality hasn't seemed to vary much. They have all broken within three months. This constant waste of money and uncertainty of what to buy has prompted me to start sharing some of the things I buy that I am happy with.

Here is one that I am loving:


It is the Wilton muffin/cake carrying case. You can use it to store baked goods or take them with you to potlucks, etc... The muffin tray come out and I have even put veggie platters in it to take out. It also holds a 9x13 cake perfectly. I love how it locks and has handles to carry- makes it easy to take along with car seat, purse, diaper bag, etc...
Because I have only had it for a few months, I can't tell how long it will last. But is seems to be made really well, and hasn't been compromised yet.
It retails for $29.99 at Michael's, but I got it for $18 with a printable online coupon. Great value!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

This week has been rough. The boys both ended up getting sick last week, and then it seemed to clear up. Then, on Sunday, Josiah started burning up again and saying his throat hurt. I took him to an after hours clinic, where he threw up all over the examination room. The doctor lacked professionalism in so many ways, that I will be sure to ask if he is working before I book any more appointments there. He was much more concerned with gossip and family business than my sick kid, so I'm not sure how much stock to put into his diagnosis, but he thinks Josiah has a throat infection. I am more inclined to believe he has tonsillitis, but I may be wrong.

Last night, he was up for most of the night screaming, so I am feeling tired today, and he is too. We have been in the house a lot and have missed many outings and activities, and I know he is feeling stir-crazy, but I know he needs rest. I have taken him on a couple of walks for fresh air, but I don't know if that is helping either.

It's so hard to know what to do, or when to go for a second opinion. I am trying to be patient and see how tonight goes, because it will mark the 48 hours on antibiotics, so there should be some changes. In the meantime, I am taking a lot of oil of oregano, washing my hands, and trying to keep Josiah out of Elwin's face. Oh, and desperately hoping for more sleep tonight!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Lately,

I have been...

...dealing with sick people in my house.

...trying to figure out how to clean vomit out of Bo, Josiah's favorite stuffed animal. I have soaked, hand-washed, sprayed, scrubbed, sunned and 'dryered' him, and he still smells. I think I am gearing up for a total re-stuffing operation!

...reading a lot.

...waiting to hear about my heart surgery. Still no news or timeline.

...longing for simplicity.

...trying to take pictures of simple things that I never want to forget.

...starting to think about Christmas.

...gearing up for snow.

...doing poorly on my diet!

...very thankful to have attended a Robin Mark concert with Chris, and know that my kids were well taken care of by sweet friends. We have not gotten out much since Elwin was born because it is so hard for me to leave a newborn with teenagers.

...selling things on a local classified sight that we don't need. This has been a great way to de-clutter, except for all of the no-shows!

...doing a ton of laundry. I don't think this chore will get lighter anytime soon.

...finding it hard to talk on the phone or stay in touch, and wishing I had more time for this.

...realizing that I like being home more with two kids than I did with one. Even though it is a bit lonely, it is much easier.

...doing lots of crafts with Josiah.

...making Elwin laugh. It is so adorable!

Friday, November 4, 2011

Costumes

Josiah had a costume party at his preschool, and the boys visited a couple of people on Halloween night in these outfits:




Josiah was not interested in wearing a costume at all, but he really wanted Elwin to go as a pig. I was talking to my cousin and she suggested making Josiah a farmer or rancher and he went for it! Although I was not able to find a manly pig costume for Elwin, he made a pretty sweet little cow!

Saturday, October 29, 2011

My baby boy turned four months old yesterday. Here are a few things he's been up to lately...

Eating cereal, although he's not quite sure what to think yet!:


Enjoying bath, but getting too big for the baby tub:


Often sleeping through the night (he often only eats once in a twelve or thirteen hour stretch!):


Hanging out with his brother (and 'the dog'):



Sitting in the Bumbo:


Smiling and being cute (and wearing 6-12 month clothes!):


Playing in the exersaucer:


Sucking the thumb of one hand, while covering his eyes with the other to get himself to sleep (this picture is just thumb sucking- I haven't caught the other on camera yet):


Still disliking the car seat, and leaving the house in general:


And 'tummy-time' is not a favourite activity yet:


But he still loves to be held close, hugged, kissed, and tickled:


When I took him to the hospital this week, Elwin weighed 18 pounds and 7 ounces. He is growing very strong, and can hold himself up on his legs now.

He has been drooling like crazy, and I am expecting to see a tooth pop through any day. This extra drool has given him the chance to spit and blow bubbles, which he loves.

Elwin enjoys music and tries to sing. He is usually quite soft-spoken, but once he gets going, it's hard to stop him! I love hearing his baby whispers (really, he does whisper), and I think he loves it when I lean in close to hear all of the important things he has to say.

From day one, he has been a little snuggle-bug. He is now leaning into my face with his mouth wide open when I kiss him, and it looks like he is trying to reciprocate, but isn't quite sure what to do yet!

I LOVE this babe, and his cute dimples!

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Elwin is sick. He's been fussing a lot the past couple of days, but yesterday was terrible. He either slept (and not much) or cried, which is very unlike him.


So this morning, when he woke up bawling instead of smiling, I took him to the hospital. We were in a hurry, and he was obviously feeling rotten so I didn't change him. When we got there, the nurse pulled his slipper off because she needed a toe to measure his pulse, and this is what she found:


She didn't even need to take his sleeper off! I was completely embarrassed, because I actually knew about the hole, but I've been finding it difficult to make the time to change Elwin's dresser over, so he has very little to wear right now in his size.

Needless to say, his bigger (non-holey) clothes are now sorted and ready to be washed!

And Elwin has his first ear infection! No wonder he hasn't been himself. Hopefully we can get him to swallow enough of the medication so he'll start to feel better soon. He has this little trick where he actually stores the meds in his cheek, and keeps it there for quite a while, then spits it out when he thinks you are done!

Just a Peek